It’s been a strange week…
First our little daughter started school for the first time… It was heart breaking for us to drop her in that big world, with unknown people, not knowing what she’ll do, how she’ll handle it and most important how she’ll be treated. The first two days were very hard on us. Then it became easier. She seems to enjoy although she still says she doesn’t like it and she’s tired like hell… But in the morning she just walks in with a big smile on her face… She’ll be fine, I’m sure… And we need to learn to let her go… Amen to that…
When I told my wife I didn’t want to continue anymore, she just broke down… She couldn’t cope, didn’t want me to go, didn’t want to have a life without me. I told her there was only one way: drop him. No more contact. I’m willing to continue my life with her, despite everything, but only if there is no reason to suspect her of anything. Otherwise I’m out and she knows it… Amen to that too…
Somehow, I feel strong, relieved, almost happy. I stand my ground. And that gives a pretty good feeling. Difficult times lay ahead, but not worse than what we’ve been through until today… And I’m stronger, more determinated. I will stand my ground. I deserve a better life and I will have a better life. Amen to that too…
