Silly world

I hate my mood swings! I first spend days crying and lamenting and feeling sorry for myself… Then I move to a quieter moment, more like numb, feelingsless… And then I feel good, almost great… I can barely follow my pace, so how can I expect someone else to do it?!

You won’t believe it, but my wife hasn’t left me yet, and neither have I… Friends wonder whether I have any self respect… Or whether I have no will or whether I’m too weak… I might miss a bit of self respect, but do not accuse me of not having any will or being weak! I read something interesting about this: akrasia – this is the state of acting against one better’s judgement. The question is this. Does weakness of the will make sense? If we do something, then it means we want to do it. And if we want to do it, then that means that must be because we think that it’s in our best interest to do it? So there’s no such thing as a weakness of will because we always do what we want, even if it’s against one better’s judgement… So, I’m not weak and I don’t miss the will…

Anyway, I’m probably not making sense to you… but what counts is that it makes sense to me…

This country is not making any sense, not to me, and I reckon not to anyone. After 56 weeks of discussions and fights our government is falling apart, again… I’ve always seen myself as a Belgian, and I still do, but I’m not really proud of it… I wonder what they think of us abroad… It can’t be pretty…

Silly me, silly country, silly world…