These two weeks haven’t been as bad as I expected. Have I cried? Yes! Have I cried every single moment of her abscence? No! Have I missed her? Yes! Constantly? If I’m fully honest, no! And I didn’t look for other company to fill the gap, although I’ve had visitors.
The most positive thing of this trial periode is that my wife is more aware of her feelings towards me and those are not bad. She’s more balanced and she realises she still loves me, she knows now she’ll be losing a lot more than she thought. Will she stay? I don’t know, but I do know that now she does miss me when she’s with him, she’s much more caring towards me, more loving… She calls or sends text messages… She’s genuinly worried about me… These are all things that have been absent for a very long time. She’s returning tonight after 3 days with him and she says she’s looking forward to seeing me… Me too…
I don’t know what the future will bring for us. If we stay together we’ll be much stronger than before and only a major catastrophy will tear us apart. If we divorce we won’t be enemies for the rests of our lives. So whatever happens, today is better than yesterday and I’ll know what happens tomorrow in due time…
Life is not great right now, but it has been much worse… I just hope it will get better…
bien sur que ça va aller mieux..des fois…et d’autres fois non..
j’aime ton calme…ton courage..
ne permets pas qu’elle reste avec toi parce que tu l’inquietes…ne reste pas avec elle parce que tu as peur de l’Apres..
mais si vous restez Ensemble que ce soit avec un E majuscule..les minuscules c’est fait pour les petites choses..
je crois que tu vois qu’il n’y a jamais rien de definitif ni en bien ni en mal…que les jours passent et que l’aube finit toujours par arriver que l’on soit seul ou pas..
je te felicite et t’admire…j’espere du fond du coeur que le ton de ton message est aussi le ton de ton coeur…et que tu sais que la vie continue…et nous avec!