“Life is great, mine isn’t, but generally speaking life is great. And I’m grateful life gave me a new year to continue making the best of mine.”
That’s what I put in my last post… and right now I wish life would be kinder to me. Or I haven’t used all the opportunities it gave me? Right now I think life’s a bitch, life sucks… Why this turn around? All my dreams shattered last weekend. My wife is cheating on me… We’ve been having difficulties for a long time but I always thought that our love would overcome anything… I always thought that if we both made efforts, we would manage… We’re both guilty, we both made mistakes. I’m not an angel… I’ve been invading her privacy by reading her personal mail and SMS’s… So it’s clear there is a lack of trust or even respect…
Yesterday the big word came out: “Divorce”…. A nightmare to me… We still love each other but it doesn’t seem to work… We have a 2-year-old child together… I can’t imagine what she’ll go through… I can’t imagine someone else than me and my wife raising her…
We are still discussing, we still might find a way out, but I doubt it. My whole body, my heart and my brains seem to be falling apart. I can’t sleep, I can’t eat. Sometimes I wish I could disappear or even better turn back time to those moments when I took a wrong decision or said or did the wrong thing… I wish… I wish everything to go back to normal…
If this is life, right now, I’d rather check out…
