Unfair

On Friday I had to swim to a job interview… when I left the office it was pouring cats and dogs… But I enjoyed the bicycle ride, completely dressed in special rain clothing. The interview went so well that today I’ll be resigning my current position… I’m so nervous to meet my boss during this day… but half not so shocked as I was yesterday.

I went for brunch to my brother’s. I knew he had some important news and I knew it had something to do with his health… It took a while before we actually came to the subject, but in the end he started talking about all the tests he’s been going through since mid-January. It appears he has MS… I couldn’t believe my ears. I’ve heard of it, I even know someone who’s been living with it for years, I know it’s degenerative and I know it shortens your life and can make you suffer for a very long time… I was so shocked, still am…. He’s only 38… Doctors can’t say how it will evolve and how long it will take before he can’t function anymore.

If you look at him you wouldn’t believe it: he’s handsome, smart, sense of humour…. Then he starts giving examples and you realise, hey, I noticed that too, but I never thought…. Anyway, I’ll support him as much as I can and I just hope he’ll still be able to enjoy life as long as possible….

 It’s so unfair…

A job

… should just be a job, it shouldn’t define your life, your mood, your happiness… That’s a life’s job, not a job’s job… Anyway, it shouldn’t do all this, but my job does and it’s not a pretty sight…

I went for a job interview last Tuesday and at the end the manager told me he’d think about a proper employment conditions and that he’d send them to me before the end of the week. Although I’m not completely sure this would be the right job for me, I think it would be a step in the direction that I want to turn to: training and education. So now I’m waiting to see whether the conditions are acceptable. I’ve checked my mail a dozen of times… We’ll see…

 In the meanwhile my job and possibly my future job do define my life, my mood and my (un)happyness… It sucks!

Poetry

I came across the following poem:

“Shadow surprises more than light

Night more than day

Silence too surprises more than words

Will death surprise more than life?”

- Roberto Juarroz (free translation)

You can find more poems from Juarroz on http://amediavoz.com/juarroz.htm

Enjoy!

Peking Express

I’m a great fan of all kinds of music and I try to be very openminded towards music. It doesn’t always work and there are things that I actually can’t categorize as music and I’m sure lots of you will think that what I categorize as music is real crap…

Anyway, I really want to share this piece of music with you: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ouoMHKnNviY&mode=related&search.

I came across it while watching one of my favourite programs: Peking Express, a reality show, I’d love to participate to it, and I’ve actually tried last season but I didn’t seem to have been interesting enough and now I’m having second thoughts, as I’d have to miss my little daughter for six weeks. Anyway, enjoy the music as I do, I can just feel the strenght and hope coming from it.

Have a great musical and poetic week!